So Much More

An excerpt from this evening's porch-sitting reflection on disheartened emotions living alongside an awe of the cross:

The disparity, perhaps, is the feeling of the cross. The deed which afforded life but cost death is the greatest emotionally-confusing and bittersweet act that ever was.

Jesus, Fully God, asked that it be not this way: "remove it," "take it away," "some other way, please." That is, remove the separation caused by sin followed by death and the divorcing of Son from Father which were to occur on the cross. A pain, relative to the physical, infinitely more tortuous.

So, perhaps on the exhale of Easter's celebration there indeed comes a "what now?" and a "wait why?" and a "how much longer?" soul-level sentiment in those of us who see the crucifixion moment and resurrection victory as indicating so much more than what we will fully recognize on this side of Heaven.

Which is the Spirit coaching and reminding, "Yes, absolution has come, and so much more is on the way." Eagerly anticipating that so much more can feel like Christ on the garden-side of the cross: in a painful placement, anticipating reunion.